It’s been two years since Jesse Lawson announced that he, and Sleeping with Sirens, were parting ways. At the time of his departure, he revealed that he wanted to spend more time with his family and focus on a new musical venture and that there was no bad blood between the former bandmates. Now, Lawson has revealed the real reason behind his departed, and no, it’s not at all dramatic.
Heading over to the BadChristian podcast, which is produced by Emery’s Toby Morrell and Matt Carter as well as former bassist Joey Svendsen, Lawson revealed that his heart just wasn’t in it anymore. A valid and honest reason.
“My heart just … wasn’t in it anymore,” he explained. “It’s so weird because you have all these other bands who are like, ‘You’re crazy. You play these huge shows. You would be insane to not stick that out.’ But the thing was, my heart just stopped vibing with it; the music at times, the lifestyle at times, the people at times.”
but if that last comment made it seem like there some “shade” being thrown at the members of Sleeping with Sirens, Lawson quickly nips that in the bud.
“And that’s not saying the Sirens guys were assholes or anything. I mean, I’d be lying if I said that we didn’t get in fights. Any band who says they don’t get in fights are lying—you do get in fights. You’re brothers, essentially, and you’re around those people all the time. So it wasn’t necessarily that, I just stopped… believing in it.”
Apparently, not believing anymore wasn’t the only thing that was wearing him down. Lawson even admits that the green-eyed monster even showed up, especially when it began to become the “Kellin Quinn Show.”
“When I started to kinda get pushed away [and had] a bad taste in my mouth with the band, it was just so much like… the Kellin show,” he told the podcast. “And that’s nothing that he did on purpose; that’s nothing that he could choose, that’s just how it went.”
Listen to the complete podcast below.
But even without Sleeping with Sirens, Lawson has moved on. The musician released his first solo single, “August 5th” earlier this month. The song is taken off of his solo EP, Projections, which is currently out on iTunes.